Myth Maker's Development Blog

Spiraling through space and time.

Traveling through the mind.

Our selves are only an echo.

Welcome to the corridors.

All the surrounding energy.

Everything in the environment.

Everything you both can and can’t currently see or experience.

All the forces you interact with.

All potentiality can be used to send your vessel from the sea, to the sky, through the stars, and beyond.

We are the time sages. Battling against all the fabrics of the universe.

We are the time sages. Falling through it without any external effort.

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Lately, it has been about equations.

The systems that control us, bind us, and break us apart. It is hard to fathom just how complex everything goes. Infinitely inward – all the details of every system artificial or ‘real’. Infinitely outward – the concept of the whole.

Imagination, perspectives, and radical thought helps free us!

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Can’t make too much of a post right now; however there’s more coming. Just been thinking about so many things lately! Figuring things out though. In my spare time, I’ve decided to begin working on the components and libraries that games will ‘always’ use, regardless of UI. Basically, the root components of a system such as a game’s core AI logic for entities, rendering systems, or genre definitions for game types that have been created.

There’s always more to do.

First, manifestation is an awesome word. Whenever it comes into mind, I get lost in the combo of manifest + infestation, such as: The manifestation of our unlimited potential from a seed, into the darkness, and out through all of the universe! Ha ha! The word has many uses, and it encapsulates so much within as a way to invoke and communicate totally groovy and cool thoughts to others. It’s poetic!

Next! Everything is finally awesome again. An equilibrium within the darkness and light inside is finally leading along a path of immense satisfaction. There’s so much to do, all the time! I often can’t get my head out of it all lately. Whenever time is being wasted, I feel as if I’m falling into a void. The void is overwhelming. I just want to scream all the time! I find so much energy in continually trying to kick ass and face the hills that are approached, rather than avoiding it all and hiding in a distraction that morally comforts. I’ve noticed that whenever something gets hard I always just throw it to the side and find an excuse to act on that fits within my mental heuristics engine for ‘morally correct’ and ’satisfactory’. You know what sucks though? Creating bullshit! Morally correct and satisfactory excuses are all I seem to create. I’m happy with mediocre because mediocre is satisfactory enough to maintain a comfort zone within my mind that gives me approval I’m doing ‘good’. You know what’s way better? Commanding that the darkness approaches, and facing it without hesitation. Thrashing through it, screaming down its neck, and climbing through it using every piece of the world with those before me, those after me, and those around me.

There’s more to do than I can handle at times. It’s unnerving. It’s so fucking scary! Those of us alive are all pieces of the fabric, pushing through the darkness. From the void in which we’ve spawned, eventually returning as an entity to the universal silence. Mind-boggling. Sometimes, the hardest part of existing is realizing that the universe is so much bigger than yourself. Many have said it – Carl Sagan worded it, “On the scale of worlds, humans are inconsequential.” We’re pushing through the void, the gray, the emptiness, the pause, the freeze, the darkness, and the dead as a vessel of inter-connected lights.

Even with our size, we are given the gift of imagination! We can expand out and create the entire universe from within a single mind. We have a gift that allows us to push through the boundaries of space and time. Many are asleep, and many are waking up. Art, imagination, thought, emotion, and those around us help act as the keys to unlocking the infinite potential in everything. We can’t stop the gears that are turning. There’s too much to do!!! If fighting games/competitive gaming has taught me anything, it’s to maintain the momentum once you get it going. Start the engine, increase the speed, and harness the infinities!

I’ve been diving into books lately. Sprucing up with XHTML, CSS, XML, XSLT, ASP.NET, and the SlimDX library. Progress is being made slowly. I want to make sure that every technology available is understood in some way so that the decisions made can be more informed, practical, realistic, and logical with the goals that are to be aimed at. Still have to call Alain and get connected back with him to see how he’s doing and the such, but yar.

Here’s a cool video my employer sent me:

We must first imbue the path of the hero into our minds. We must learn where all is aimed.
We create the gods and the demons; the reality and the illusions; the life and the death – we are chained down only by our imaginations. By our minds.
We must breathe the stories, cradle the memories, create the paths, and live the journey.

We are lashing out like a great army, to pierce through this vast nothingness.
Dive into your soul, your place of being – pull asunder the roots and manifest the hero into reality.

Let’s create art. Art that bleeds from our being and wraps around into others. Let’s ignite and surge this energy through the world with color, contrast, and emotion. It’s paralyzing. It’s mesmerizing. It’s beautiful beyond words.

Formulating ideas. Breaking each down into fragments and pieces. Manifesting into reality the music, images, and stories. Yes!
We are the Myth Makers.

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Hi.

I founded the Myth Maker project with Alain and his brother Paul a few years back; however as you may have noticed, nothing has come from these endeavors, other than lost hope, empty promises, and a few screenshots.

First, let me say, I’m both a dumb bitch and a coward. I have grown though.
So much has changed in the last 4 years.

Somewhere in the back of my head I always had a voice telling me I need to stop running. I was not listening closely. Rather, I began building defense mechanisms and walls to comfort and soothe my happiness in hell.

“It’s a lost cause, you’ll do other things in the future.”
“No need to worry about it. Someday you might return, who cares – who knows.”
“It was an unrealistic goal, and you shouldn’t worry about it.”

And so on.

Lately, it would seem that the Myth Maker project has been commanding more and more of my energy and attention. The great void inside is demanding that this project is made into a reality. It’s maddening. It’s overwhelming me. This is home, and I will not leave. I will not continue to run.

Focus.
Focus in on the objective and set the sail full-speed ahead.

I will be updating this blog every week to provide more information on where the journey is at.
For the last two months I’ve been burrowing my mind into books. I’m currently trying to research what technologies will be optimal for the rewritten groundwork (yes, rewritten – I may have been away for a while, but I’ve most definitely not stopped learning more within the world of coding). Ideally, I may create the engine completely in a Windows environment. Mac users now have BootCamp and Parallels to work with Windows applications which is nice. There’s a great deal to discuss, plan, and execute though. Using the web for a variety of components may be a better solution.

I apologize to all of you who were waiting patiently on the completion of Myth Maker. I apologize for the lost hope, and empty promises.
The energy inside has awoken from its great slumber.